jeudi, décembre 28, 2006
♥ re account of 4K`2006
i remember doing a re-account of 3E`2005 in a post last OCT. was surprised that i didn't do 1 this year on 4K.
i said that 'how time flies this yr. time doesn wait for us. it just ticks off' (okay, i know these sounds dumb) in fact, i still remembered what rachel told me last year. 'once you turn 15, time will just fly. in a blink of an eye(or many), you might be a grandma liao (i might be exagerating this part. haha..)' (eh, this is what her mum told her lah..) yea, 2006 also passed super fast lah. 3 more days to 2007! time. i don't wanna be a grandma yet =(
i also said that 'i cant imagine the last day of GCE 'O' level paper next yr. would i be jumping with joy that there aren't exams or would i be crying cos i'll miss my tchers and frens?' haha.. in fact, i was really jumping with joy that there aren't o level exams after the 20th NOV 2006.
and if i'm not wrong, i didn't drop a tear for 4K at all. ehh, maybe for a friend or 2 but not the class. i cry a lot, but not for 4K. for 3E, yes. but not 4K. (even though most of the peeps are the same)
anyways, shall just share some stuffs about 4K.
eng t'cher, also FT, is mr kuhendran (also known as botak)
chi t'cher is mdm li dong mei
math t'cher is mr ng song seng (seriously, he rocks!)
chem t'cher is mr abu bakar
phy t'cher is mrs ong hwa hiong (also known as H2O; water)
SS t'cher is mrs leong sui fan
hist elect. t'cher is miss azlinda
art t'cher is mr gopal
AFT is mr daniel phua
class consists of 9 girls and 19 boys and 1 gay which is equals to 29.
i seriously don't know what to say about 4K. like i said, 'i can count the number of classmates who i like (as in friends lah) with 1 hand'
in 2006, while every other graduating classes are trying their best to have class gatherings, tee shirts and anything just for their classmates to remember the class of 2006, 4K's just minding their own business. even if there is a gathering (and the probability of have one is 1/50; that's if we go to school for 200 days), not 29 of us will know the news lah. and how big is my class? 29, is only 3/4 of other classes. [i'm trying to complain about ev'thing which i've bottled up for 362 days.] just because i'm damn quiet in class doesn't mean it's okay to bully me (not beating or anything lah!!) i didn't like 4K at all. those classmates (still got some exception arh..) and probably t'chers.
haha. mr gopal is really a good t'cher. i'm kinda shock about this remark also lah, but his bark is worse than his bite lor (not trying to say he's a dog k.) though he's forever scolding me even till the day i handed in my art coursework, i know he's just trying to push us to a higher level. i may be thinking too much lah, but hey, even some of the sec5 art peeps agree lor. even if i get a pathetic C6 for art, i'll be really happy cos gopal had been helping me a lot!
mr ng song seng is another t'cher who's worthy of the respect. even though he **okes (probability on credibility is 1/2) and has a beer belly and concentrates so much on career that he's unable to get married/gf, he still puts on a spirit that gives us a motivation to learn more on math! i enjoyed math so much since he started teaching us! it could be psychologically cos he's the HOD of math department. but i think the way he teaches us (still got games to play!), the cold jokes he shared, the grandpa stories about himself, the time and effort he gave us is simply immeasurable lah. and not to forget, the SWENSENS treat he gave my class during the march school holidays. he taught us transformation and i think that swensens treat got my brain brainwashed cos up to today, i still don't understand scale factor and thank God this topic didn't come out for O level P2, section A lor. haha. so count my blessing to have him as my math t'cher (:
i wanted this year to pass so badly cos i didn't like my class and stuffs, that i've neglected my best friend. well, best friend is probably in the past. the last time i talk to her was GOD-KNOWS-WHEN. i really regretted my actions towards her. i'm selfish and self centred. i think it'll be too late to salvage this situation.
i still have that fear which has been living in me for 5 years. whenever i walk past her flat, the slope which we once cycled, the arcades we went, the shopping mall which used to be our hang out, the time when we skipped school, i am always reminded of the hurt and betrayal. yea, i was only p5, 11 yrs old then. how much do i know about betrayal and stuffs right. i didn't even realise that this has been haunting me for 5 yrs already. that was a wrong choice. i longed acceptance then, thus resulting to these. i could had ignore them and get on with life but i won't. i wanted to spite them but now i know that i've lost terribly. i've lost these friends - *****, ******, *****. it's extremely difficult to gain that trust we once shared cos now we know that our trust is frail actually. even though i seemed non chalant when i saw her on christmas day, those scenes starting playing in my mind again. tears probably rolled down but i seems to be quick in wiping those up. why must i be the one suffering here. crying over these. God.
i said that 'how time flies this yr. time doesn wait for us. it just ticks off' (okay, i know these sounds dumb) in fact, i still remembered what rachel told me last year. 'once you turn 15, time will just fly. in a blink of an eye(or many), you might be a grandma liao (i might be exagerating this part. haha..)' (eh, this is what her mum told her lah..) yea, 2006 also passed super fast lah. 3 more days to 2007! time. i don't wanna be a grandma yet =(
i also said that 'i cant imagine the last day of GCE 'O' level paper next yr. would i be jumping with joy that there aren't exams or would i be crying cos i'll miss my tchers and frens?' haha.. in fact, i was really jumping with joy that there aren't o level exams after the 20th NOV 2006.
and if i'm not wrong, i didn't drop a tear for 4K at all. ehh, maybe for a friend or 2 but not the class. i cry a lot, but not for 4K. for 3E, yes. but not 4K. (even though most of the peeps are the same)
anyways, shall just share some stuffs about 4K.
eng t'cher, also FT, is mr kuhendran (also known as botak)
chi t'cher is mdm li dong mei
math t'cher is mr ng song seng (seriously, he rocks!)
chem t'cher is mr abu bakar
phy t'cher is mrs ong hwa hiong (also known as H2O; water)
SS t'cher is mrs leong sui fan
hist elect. t'cher is miss azlinda
art t'cher is mr gopal
AFT is mr daniel phua
class consists of 9 girls and 19 boys and 1 gay which is equals to 29.
i seriously don't know what to say about 4K. like i said, 'i can count the number of classmates who i like (as in friends lah) with 1 hand'
in 2006, while every other graduating classes are trying their best to have class gatherings, tee shirts and anything just for their classmates to remember the class of 2006, 4K's just minding their own business. even if there is a gathering (and the probability of have one is 1/50; that's if we go to school for 200 days), not 29 of us will know the news lah. and how big is my class? 29, is only 3/4 of other classes. [i'm trying to complain about ev'thing which i've bottled up for 362 days.] just because i'm damn quiet in class doesn't mean it's okay to bully me (not beating or anything lah!!) i didn't like 4K at all. those classmates (still got some exception arh..) and probably t'chers.
haha. mr gopal is really a good t'cher. i'm kinda shock about this remark also lah, but his bark is worse than his bite lor (not trying to say he's a dog k.) though he's forever scolding me even till the day i handed in my art coursework, i know he's just trying to push us to a higher level. i may be thinking too much lah, but hey, even some of the sec5 art peeps agree lor. even if i get a pathetic C6 for art, i'll be really happy cos gopal had been helping me a lot!
mr ng song seng is another t'cher who's worthy of the respect. even though he **okes (probability on credibility is 1/2) and has a beer belly and concentrates so much on career that he's unable to get married/gf, he still puts on a spirit that gives us a motivation to learn more on math! i enjoyed math so much since he started teaching us! it could be psychologically cos he's the HOD of math department. but i think the way he teaches us (still got games to play!), the cold jokes he shared, the grandpa stories about himself, the time and effort he gave us is simply immeasurable lah. and not to forget, the SWENSENS treat he gave my class during the march school holidays. he taught us transformation and i think that swensens treat got my brain brainwashed cos up to today, i still don't understand scale factor and thank God this topic didn't come out for O level P2, section A lor. haha. so count my blessing to have him as my math t'cher (:
i wanted this year to pass so badly cos i didn't like my class and stuffs, that i've neglected my best friend. well, best friend is probably in the past. the last time i talk to her was GOD-KNOWS-WHEN. i really regretted my actions towards her. i'm selfish and self centred. i think it'll be too late to salvage this situation.
i still have that fear which has been living in me for 5 years. whenever i walk past her flat, the slope which we once cycled, the arcades we went, the shopping mall which used to be our hang out, the time when we skipped school, i am always reminded of the hurt and betrayal. yea, i was only p5, 11 yrs old then. how much do i know about betrayal and stuffs right. i didn't even realise that this has been haunting me for 5 yrs already. that was a wrong choice. i longed acceptance then, thus resulting to these. i could had ignore them and get on with life but i won't. i wanted to spite them but now i know that i've lost terribly. i've lost these friends - *****, ******, *****. it's extremely difficult to gain that trust we once shared cos now we know that our trust is frail actually. even though i seemed non chalant when i saw her on christmas day, those scenes starting playing in my mind again. tears probably rolled down but i seems to be quick in wiping those up. why must i be the one suffering here. crying over these. God.
3:19 AM
♥ christmas~
today's the 3rd day of christmas! =D
okay, 'home for christmas' on 25th dec was great? haha.. went to church early to give out some balloons to kids at the nearby coffee shop~ and really thank GOD that those who were offered the balloons really came! cos matthew l. was trying to do a double balloon kinda thing in the morning and of cos he succeeded, i think he did 2 of them. so at the end of the drama, we saw 1 of the double balloon at the ceiling lor (thanks to helium). haha.. some pics we took!
LOL
okay, 'home for christmas' on 25th dec was great? haha.. went to church early to give out some balloons to kids at the nearby coffee shop~ and really thank GOD that those who were offered the balloons really came! cos matthew l. was trying to do a double balloon kinda thing in the morning and of cos he succeeded, i think he did 2 of them. so at the end of the drama, we saw 1 of the double balloon at the ceiling lor (thanks to helium). haha.. some pics we took!
LOL
12:52 AM
lundi, décembre 25, 2006
♥ MERRY CHRISTMAS + CHRISTMAS BASH
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE! :D
anyways, christmas bash was on 20th dec~ XD
some random pics we took~
23rd DEC
and this is a swensens treat from darren! YUMMY~ =P
yeah. some stuffs we learned during our guitar class..
after our dinner :D
LOL
anyways, christmas bash was on 20th dec~ XD
some random pics we took~
23rd DEC
and this is a swensens treat from darren! YUMMY~ =P
yeah. some stuffs we learned during our guitar class..
after our dinner :D
LOL
12:49 AM
mardi, décembre 19, 2006
♥ denying God
Denying God
most of us would think that denying God simply means saying 'i don't know jesus' or 'i don't believe in christianity' when questioned esp when you actually believed. i'm pretty sure that not many would deny God in this manner. but there's other ways which we could have denied God.
haha. i actually encountered this at the bus stop today. okay, the problem with my mobile phone is that the message ringtone would simply go on despite pressing numerous buttons. it's not like any SE, nokia, samsung or siemens phone where the music will stop when you press the button. dopod phone is kinda different, ahh.. my msg ringtone happens to be 'the stand' by hillsong, which is 30 seconds short XD. so whenever i receive a sms, the music will play for 30 seconds. that's when the 'embarrassment' starts. ppl staring at you and your phone, wondering when the irritating music would just end. sometimes to save the embarrassment, i will resort to switching my mobile phone to silent or vibration mode. so for me, switching my phone to silent mode is as good as denying God cos it's a christian song. but we are supposed to be children of God and the light of the world, we are supposed to be proud to be a child of God! so from this very moment onwards, i shall face the music (: haha. i want the whole world to know that I LOVE GOD :) meow!
most of us would think that denying God simply means saying 'i don't know jesus' or 'i don't believe in christianity' when questioned esp when you actually believed. i'm pretty sure that not many would deny God in this manner. but there's other ways which we could have denied God.
haha. i actually encountered this at the bus stop today. okay, the problem with my mobile phone is that the message ringtone would simply go on despite pressing numerous buttons. it's not like any SE, nokia, samsung or siemens phone where the music will stop when you press the button. dopod phone is kinda different, ahh.. my msg ringtone happens to be 'the stand' by hillsong, which is 30 seconds short XD. so whenever i receive a sms, the music will play for 30 seconds. that's when the 'embarrassment' starts. ppl staring at you and your phone, wondering when the irritating music would just end. sometimes to save the embarrassment, i will resort to switching my mobile phone to silent or vibration mode. so for me, switching my phone to silent mode is as good as denying God cos it's a christian song. but we are supposed to be children of God and the light of the world, we are supposed to be proud to be a child of God! so from this very moment onwards, i shall face the music (: haha. i want the whole world to know that I LOVE GOD :) meow!
11:39 PM
dimanche, décembre 17, 2006
♥ i am selfish. self centred.
i'm quite tired actually. but this is only a mini test from God lor. compared to the others, i think this is only 1/5 of what they are going thru. at times, i'll just hope that i didn made that decision. ha. yep. during encounter last 2 weeks ago, God was really challenging me to do that thing. He kept encouraging and assuring me that 'I CAN DO IT!' sure, i decided to take up that challenge initially but my whole prospective of 'em changed after that week. i know that He wants me to love and show grace to them. i tried. but i couldn control my emotions. although i've said during the encounter and youth camp that God can 'TAKE IT ALL' and i 'OFFER THIS HEART COMPLETELY TO YOU', it seems as if i'm snatching it back from God once again. i lack of the confidence once again, i fear of failure again. this is taking up too much energy. i know i cant run away from this problem cos there will definitely be a same problem which i'll go thru, it's only a matter of time lah. God wants me to go BEYOND and not stay stagnant. i just told someone this afternoon that i don't want to do that thing, i rather not grow spiritually den go thru these. i know that God is upset bcos of what i've said cos i really felt a burden lor. they are also God's children. sometimes it's also best if i'll look at the positive side. and this can only work if God empowers me. God's trying to give me the fruit of the spirit. LOVE. etc.
LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.
LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.
11:59 PM
♥ desaru youth camp pictures.
As promised. Desaru Youth Camp 2006 pictures :D
the journey.
on the coach :)
DESARU GOLDEN BEACH~
we've finally arrived!
the hut. (inside&outside)
wild monkeys!!!
balcony
our rooms
living room
kitchen
TEEVEE!!
front view (: HUT no. 2
the sea/sand/BEACH.
the FOOD.
maggi mee from s'pore
KIT KAT! i miss chocs~
our RAMLI BURGER~~!!
our last lunch
and we ate these burgers when we reached s'pore
stayed up on the last night to eat kua zi.
look! ramli burger is good quality
the games.
hey!we won this round (:
the PEOPLE (:
happily eating her bread from s'pore (X
ma chiam like some tourists from cheena
chie hui! interesting way of bathing XD
caleb`
okay, no joke. i seriously miss the hut :'(
ahh!! some nerds!
m. mouse and BATMAN!!
during the session~
the journey.
on the coach :)
DESARU GOLDEN BEACH~
we've finally arrived!
the hut. (inside&outside)
wild monkeys!!!
balcony
our rooms
living room
kitchen
TEEVEE!!
front view (: HUT no. 2
the sea/sand/BEACH.
the FOOD.
maggi mee from s'pore
KIT KAT! i miss chocs~
our RAMLI BURGER~~!!
our last lunch
and we ate these burgers when we reached s'pore
stayed up on the last night to eat kua zi.
look! ramli burger is good quality
the games.
hey!we won this round (:
the PEOPLE (:
happily eating her bread from s'pore (X
ma chiam like some tourists from cheena
chie hui! interesting way of bathing XD
caleb`
okay, no joke. i seriously miss the hut :'(
ahh!! some nerds!
m. mouse and BATMAN!!
during the session~
yes. these should be all. (: finally.
12:48 AM
