samedi, mars 31, 2007
♥ BBQ
yea, this is a pic of SP and me when we bought our bass! =D
this is the group pic of us when we went to ubin for our mini expedition! lol. the one behind is a quarry~
today's BBQ at sembawang was quite okay. had the ice breaker and we played a BBQ version of 'forest, fire, squirrel' haha. after that was makan time! chiong arh! haha, not really filling enuff, so was grumbling a lot on the way home also la. haha. den after that we all went to the rooftop for worship. haha, we were given a candle~ i wanna be a light of the world! =D den started comparing the wax on our candles lah! haha. and when my hand kana the wax, my mind linked to BATIK lah! haha, i really miss BATIK! ): and here's our group pic =D
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haha. den ev'one started blowing out each other's candles lah! haha, had fun blowing out the ignorant ones! lol. after BBQ, headed down to TM's mac for supper! yea, we were all complaining abt the food la. haha~
i don't wanna be a christian, i wanna be like JESUS!
this is the group pic of us when we went to ubin for our mini expedition! lol. the one behind is a quarry~
today's BBQ at sembawang was quite okay. had the ice breaker and we played a BBQ version of 'forest, fire, squirrel' haha. after that was makan time! chiong arh! haha, not really filling enuff, so was grumbling a lot on the way home also la. haha. den after that we all went to the rooftop for worship. haha, we were given a candle~ i wanna be a light of the world! =D den started comparing the wax on our candles lah! haha. and when my hand kana the wax, my mind linked to BATIK lah! haha, i really miss BATIK! ): and here's our group pic =D
border="0" />haha. den ev'one started blowing out each other's candles lah! haha, had fun blowing out the ignorant ones! lol. after BBQ, headed down to TM's mac for supper! yea, we were all complaining abt the food la. haha~
i don't wanna be a christian, i wanna be like JESUS!
11:59 PM
♥ i love my PAPAs!
"when u grow older, u'll salute me and thank me for all the canings and scoldings." whenever i hear this, i'll smirk and think otherwise. "as if." he canes me when i do badly for exams. he canes me when i shoplifts. he canes me when i skip school. he canes me when i watched tv at the wrong time. he canes me when i lie. he canes me when i steal. he canes me when i show disrespectfulness to family members. yet he canes me bcos he cares. he canes me bcos he loves me. always giving the best to his children. holidays, education, lifestyle. able to go to overseas yearly for holidays, rewarding $10 after receiving our semester results slip. rewarding me when i'm able to go to secondary school, polytechnic, university. buying for me a laptop for poly, sending me to adam khoo's course which cost a bomb. if my earthly papa can do so much for me, what more my heavenly papa? He came down to earth, that speck of dust, just to die for you and me. He forgives and forgets all our wrongdoings. He loves us unconditionally. He's right there with us whenever we call out [jer 33:3].
1:57 PM
vendredi, mars 30, 2007
♥ i am so small
i am so small! extremely tiny!
TODAY I LEARNED that the whole WHOLE UNIVERSE is so huge.
TODAY I LEARNED that the milky way galaxy is so BIG.
TODAY I LEARNED that it is challenging to see our solar system from the M.K. galaxy.
TODAY I LEARNED that the earth is small compared with the SUN.
TODAY I LEARNED that the earth is only a speck of dust in the galaxy.
TODAY I LEARNED that human beings are actually so tiny.
TODAY I LEARNED that i am extremely tiny.
TODAY I LEARNED that there are more than 500billion stars.
TODAY I LEARNED that new stars are born each second.
TODAY I LEARNED that God's love is so great that He came down to Earth, that speck of dust, just to die for me.
TODAY I LEARNED that God is mighty for He knows ev' single one of us humans, and even stars by their names.
TODAY I LEARNED that my problems are not big at all, but so small, pathetic.
TODAY I LEARNED that GOD is so BIG.
TODAY I LEARNED that GOD is so BIG that the infinite universe is only the span of His hand.
TODAY I LEARNED that GOD's love, grace, mercy, kindness, goodness, faithfulness endures FOREVER.
God is bigger than the air I breathe
The world we'll leave
God will save the day and all will say
My glorious!
TODAY I LEARNED that the whole WHOLE UNIVERSE is so huge.
TODAY I LEARNED that the milky way galaxy is so BIG.
TODAY I LEARNED that it is challenging to see our solar system from the M.K. galaxy.
TODAY I LEARNED that the earth is small compared with the SUN.
TODAY I LEARNED that the earth is only a speck of dust in the galaxy.
TODAY I LEARNED that human beings are actually so tiny.
TODAY I LEARNED that i am extremely tiny.
TODAY I LEARNED that there are more than 500billion stars.
TODAY I LEARNED that new stars are born each second.
TODAY I LEARNED that God's love is so great that He came down to Earth, that speck of dust, just to die for me.
TODAY I LEARNED that God is mighty for He knows ev' single one of us humans, and even stars by their names.
TODAY I LEARNED that my problems are not big at all, but so small, pathetic.
TODAY I LEARNED that GOD is so BIG.
TODAY I LEARNED that GOD is so BIG that the infinite universe is only the span of His hand.
TODAY I LEARNED that GOD's love, grace, mercy, kindness, goodness, faithfulness endures FOREVER.
God is bigger than the air I breathe
The world we'll leave
God will save the day and all will say
My glorious!
2:25 AM
mardi, mars 27, 2007
♥ pek chek again
woke up at 10 this morning to go to SP to configure my laptop. reached there ard 1145am and was very very very sad when i heard that SP doesn't have any windows vista programme. all in windows xp, which also means i'll need to DOWNGRADE to xp. imagine the agony of buying a vista laptop when u're not allowed to use it till 3 yrs later. and i only played vista for a night to be exact. i was and i am still very very very sad. now my bluetooth isn't working, thr isn't any sound available on the laptop, i can no longer see what's my battery life when i'm charging, i have to stick to playing pinball, the bar of the internet page is no longer black but still blue, this is so wth can. and i had to sit on the chair for 6 hrs straight just to downgrade to xp and get the microsoft office stuffs. i only managed to leave SP at 545, and reaching back home at 650pm. gosh. and why SP only can use XP huh?! it's a waste of my money lah. and i STILL hear nothing. argh! >:(
9:01 PM
♥ short post on TMNT
yay, went to sim lim square this afternoon to get a lappy(learned this word from az) for poly! my sis went there first to rackee and found a rather good bargain! got meet my requirements for lappy bsides the fingerprint recognition lah. but at least it's light! that's my main requirement! =D 1.7kg nia~ haha. after that went to have movie TMNT with darren, amos, simon, janice and my sis at tm. haha. it's been a long long time since i last watched ninja turtle show. i only know 2 characters. raphael and michaelangelo. haha. cos last time nv really pay attention to the cartoon. haha. my time was teletubbies mah. but i think that show is really scary now. heard some scary stories from frens abt teletubbies when i was younger too. haha. after that went for dinner at mac! yay! while watching movie, i was thinking of mac la! haha! using lappy now, kinda weird still. haha.
hmm. i really wanna change but it's just so difficult. i seriously dunno what's my problem lah. haiz
hmm. i really wanna change but it's just so difficult. i seriously dunno what's my problem lah. haiz
12:18 AM
lundi, mars 26, 2007
♥ laptop
woohoo! i've got a new laptop =D fujitsu de!! hahahahahah! yay!
11:21 PM
dimanche, mars 25, 2007
♥ edge~ & bass~!!
whoo! met SP & JL at interchange today to go for bass at yishun! wah! and JL helped to carry our amp which is very heavy :D yay! haha~ ooh! ev'one in our bass class got bass guitars already! very good! now ev'one can practice at home also~ haha.. after bass, had workshop~ haha.. and then was lunchy! omg, i really had an expensive lunch lor. and e 3 of us went back to childhood days, as in primary sch kids, we went to UNCLEtidbits and buy some long-lost snacks which we hadn't eaten for the past few years. haha! yummy! den had edge! was on running to our vision! yea, it's linked to synerg!z =D with dreams. hahas. it was really practical skills lah. neways, my happy days were indeed short lived [refer to 12th march's short post]. boo hoo. shocked sia! haiz, happy days sure do not last! ): even during synergiz, we keep "seeing" him lah! LOL. haha. i think God really wants to tell us smth lah. ): den had dinner at CS food court, 1st time didn't eat claypot~ =D after dinner, went to arcade! haha.. funny lah. :D stayed thr till it was about to close! haha.. thr's morning service tmr! yay~!
12:03 AM
vendredi, mars 23, 2007
♥ SD MEMORY CARD
Hey guys, I got a brand-new 2GB SD memory card for sale.. Bought it last year but nv got a chance to use it, so you are interested do tag or sms me ya? Selling at $80/- only! Still got warrantry etc.. Thanks!
1:32 AM
jeudi, mars 22, 2007
♥ me bean LOL
mr bean's holiday was hilarious. i think mr bean really got the worst fate on earth. the first scene was the lucky draw contest. his no was actually 616 but the lucky no was 919! tok about coincidence yea. feeling upset over the great range of no, he threw his ticket and it got on to the toy train which was moving around the circuit. den he saw the ticket 919 on the train and he koped it lah, not knowing it was the same ticket. LOL. he got a free trip to cannes beach and video camera and 200 euros! wow, that's a lot of $$. the scene when he had seafood platter at the restaurant was equally funny. he felt totally grossed out of the wiggly feeling of the oyster. YUMMY! and he wasted it lah! the manager was looking at him, but he pretended to eat when he actually slip it on his napkin. and the naughtiest thingy he did was he threw the (yummy) oysters in the lady's bag next to him. gosh, that's like so inconsiderate! haha! and when he was supposed to eat that mini lobster, dunno what's the exact name, ev'one was looking at him cos he literally ate ev'thing including the shell, and swallowed in lah! oh my! ): haha. he finally zhao(4) when the lady's hp next to him, rang! and she was screaming cos it's so slimy! haha! and her hp was those super good phone lah. i admit that some scenes are too exaggerated, but i think mr bean's shows are like that. haiz, he's really the suay-est character on earth ): gaga.
11:53 PM
♥ Pulah Ubin!
gonna write a short post b4 watching mr bean movie later~
went for a cycling cum hiking "expedition" at p. ubin ytd with my sis, amos, simon, darren, ian and gladys at late afternoon ytd. the cycling was much nicer den the usual cycling at east coast/pasir ris park. this is full of steep slopes, stones and rocks, muddy water and even wild boar!! *screams*!! haha! we didn't have much fun as i had yrs ago cos we only cycled for 3 hours max. haha.. i was lucky not to fall with my bike or anything lah. thank you God. but i think i was too prideful or smth cos when i was getting onto the boat from ubin to s'pore, i missed my balance and i fell! ): hahas. super unglam!! hahas. but at least i didn get much cuts and bruises yeah.. on tues, went for my medical check up at eastern specialist clinic and i gotta take my urine test like next week again. sad. waste time! ): haiz. went with huishan to SATA for her medical check up too. although waiting time was quite long but the fees is cheaper. hoho. lots of mosquito bites from ytd's trip! gagaga! ):
went for a cycling cum hiking "expedition" at p. ubin ytd with my sis, amos, simon, darren, ian and gladys at late afternoon ytd. the cycling was much nicer den the usual cycling at east coast/pasir ris park. this is full of steep slopes, stones and rocks, muddy water and even wild boar!! *screams*!! haha! we didn't have much fun as i had yrs ago cos we only cycled for 3 hours max. haha.. i was lucky not to fall with my bike or anything lah. thank you God. but i think i was too prideful or smth cos when i was getting onto the boat from ubin to s'pore, i missed my balance and i fell! ): hahas. super unglam!! hahas. but at least i didn get much cuts and bruises yeah.. on tues, went for my medical check up at eastern specialist clinic and i gotta take my urine test like next week again. sad. waste time! ): haiz. went with huishan to SATA for her medical check up too. although waiting time was quite long but the fees is cheaper. hoho. lots of mosquito bites from ytd's trip! gagaga! ):
1:36 PM
lundi, mars 19, 2007
♥ synergiz `07 at tamp VFC!
hello! it's been one long week since i last blogged. that week had been a hectic one. haha, but that week really rock too! thank God so much! He's so awesome! xD
i received my enrolment package last monday evening, so i did the online pre-enrol at night on monday. on tues, i sorted out the necessary items which were needed to be signed by my papa, and including taking the cheque. it took me one whole day, lol. slow lah.. on wed, choing for check up but after reaching the clinic, did i realised that i must make an appointment! so i went to have my thumb print at POSB tamp branch and waited superrrrrrrrrrrrr long to pay my school fees ): after that i went to photocopy my IC cos i forgot to photocopy the day b4 ): and after reaching home that day, then i realised i needed 2 copies of birth cert! wah, sian lor, i tot i can send out liao. ok, noticed that i was rushing to do ev'thing? cos i was going to SYNERGIZ at tamp building on thurs to sat! no time to slack! and i was supposed to send in by 16 march which i tot it was a sat! and i sent in only on sat after 5pm. i was really afraid can. all the what-ifs came into my mind. what if SP were to de-register me from my course, what if the documents were to be sent out only on tues, what if they find some documents not inside, etc. ):
speaking about SYNERGIZ, it really rocks my world! LOL. hahas.. had breakfast ev' morning at 8:45am, that means need to wake up by 7:30am which also means i'll have insufficient sleep. haha.. okay, the main point isn't this. speakers were matthew barnett, jeanne mayo, jeff deyo and band. for those who don't know who jeff deyo is, he's the former lead singer of SONICFLOOd! for those who don't know who SONICFLOOd is, they're the one who sang 'i could sing of your love forever' and 'do you feel the mountains tremble'! for those who really don't know what these songs are, i supposed you were still in kindergarten then. ): haha. i actually didn't know who jeff deyo is, until i realised he was from SONICFLOOd and i heard this band from fiona :) lol.
the 1st session on thurs was a lil awkward cos not many ppl knew how to sing jeff deyo's songs during worship. so when he first sing a new (to us) song, we'll listen to the tune and try to catch it with the lyrics. then he'll usually repeat the same verse, and we'll sing along. yeah! =D haha. the first speaker was matthew barnett. he shared with us on his dream center at L.A. having to "steal" the prostitutes at night by giving a rose to then and say "God loves you" and then "kidnap" them. after "kidnapping" them, their pimps will notice and come chasing after the van which they were in. and then the ppl in the van would contact the ppl from dream center to stand at their building lah! btw, dream center main purpose is to reach to those ex convicts and prostitutes and pimps and practically ev'one! so these ex-convicts or ex gang mbrs will guard outside whenever this situation happens! LOL. it was really interesting! jeanne mayo shared about purity. i think this topic is reallt impt esp to youth and singles nowadays. like what she had shared that good guys doesn't like used furnitures. and jeff deyo and lou santigio/louis also shared with us on how they worship God thru music. God loves a true worshipper. (: the last session of synerg!z was great too. i choose the cross! slowly, ev'one starts saying this with all their heart and might. truely, He is awesome (:
some pics we took with the band and speakers =D once in a lifetime only!
from left: sammy [BASSIST!!], trent [GUITARIST!], su ping, lou [DRUMMER], me!
mark [PIANIST!!] and me!
jeff deyo [LEAD SINGER~] and me!
louis [DRUMMER] and me!
trent [GUITARIST!] and me!
group pic with jeanne mayo!
jeanne mayo and me! <3
matthew barnett and me! i admit, i'm short ): haha
group pic with matthew barnett~!
happy us after taking pic with the band! :DD
oh yea, i checked out the webby of jeff's and their schedule was this! at victory family centre =D
ooh!! speaking about jeff deyo, we learnt a lot of new songs! YOU ARE GOOD, SATURATE, WE ARE HUNGRY, UNVEIL, BLESS THE LORD, JESUS I SURRENDER, and many many more!! wow! i think this CD which came out in 2005 is really worth my $$!! including getting their signatures :D haha!! their latest album which is UNVEIL is gonna come out on the 22nd may 2007, rmb to get it! =D
it was a fulfilling week! =DDDDD
ps. i just realised my face in ev' single pic seems to be cut and paste lah!
i received my enrolment package last monday evening, so i did the online pre-enrol at night on monday. on tues, i sorted out the necessary items which were needed to be signed by my papa, and including taking the cheque. it took me one whole day, lol. slow lah.. on wed, choing for check up but after reaching the clinic, did i realised that i must make an appointment! so i went to have my thumb print at POSB tamp branch and waited superrrrrrrrrrrrr long to pay my school fees ): after that i went to photocopy my IC cos i forgot to photocopy the day b4 ): and after reaching home that day, then i realised i needed 2 copies of birth cert! wah, sian lor, i tot i can send out liao. ok, noticed that i was rushing to do ev'thing? cos i was going to SYNERGIZ at tamp building on thurs to sat! no time to slack! and i was supposed to send in by 16 march which i tot it was a sat! and i sent in only on sat after 5pm. i was really afraid can. all the what-ifs came into my mind. what if SP were to de-register me from my course, what if the documents were to be sent out only on tues, what if they find some documents not inside, etc. ):
speaking about SYNERGIZ, it really rocks my world! LOL. hahas.. had breakfast ev' morning at 8:45am, that means need to wake up by 7:30am which also means i'll have insufficient sleep. haha.. okay, the main point isn't this. speakers were matthew barnett, jeanne mayo, jeff deyo and band. for those who don't know who jeff deyo is, he's the former lead singer of SONICFLOOd! for those who don't know who SONICFLOOd is, they're the one who sang 'i could sing of your love forever' and 'do you feel the mountains tremble'! for those who really don't know what these songs are, i supposed you were still in kindergarten then. ): haha. i actually didn't know who jeff deyo is, until i realised he was from SONICFLOOd and i heard this band from fiona :) lol.
the 1st session on thurs was a lil awkward cos not many ppl knew how to sing jeff deyo's songs during worship. so when he first sing a new (to us) song, we'll listen to the tune and try to catch it with the lyrics. then he'll usually repeat the same verse, and we'll sing along. yeah! =D haha. the first speaker was matthew barnett. he shared with us on his dream center at L.A. having to "steal" the prostitutes at night by giving a rose to then and say "God loves you" and then "kidnap" them. after "kidnapping" them, their pimps will notice and come chasing after the van which they were in. and then the ppl in the van would contact the ppl from dream center to stand at their building lah! btw, dream center main purpose is to reach to those ex convicts and prostitutes and pimps and practically ev'one! so these ex-convicts or ex gang mbrs will guard outside whenever this situation happens! LOL. it was really interesting! jeanne mayo shared about purity. i think this topic is reallt impt esp to youth and singles nowadays. like what she had shared that good guys doesn't like used furnitures. and jeff deyo and lou santigio/louis also shared with us on how they worship God thru music. God loves a true worshipper. (: the last session of synerg!z was great too. i choose the cross! slowly, ev'one starts saying this with all their heart and might. truely, He is awesome (:
some pics we took with the band and speakers =D once in a lifetime only!
from left: sammy [BASSIST!!], trent [GUITARIST!], su ping, lou [DRUMMER], me!
mark [PIANIST!!] and me!jeff deyo [LEAD SINGER~] and me! louis [DRUMMER] and me! trent [GUITARIST!] and me! group pic with jeanne mayo! jeanne mayo and me! <3 matthew barnett and me! i admit, i'm short ): haha group pic with matthew barnett~! happy us after taking pic with the band! :DD oh yea, i checked out the webby of jeff's and their schedule was this! at victory family centre =D ooh!! speaking about jeff deyo, we learnt a lot of new songs! YOU ARE GOOD, SATURATE, WE ARE HUNGRY, UNVEIL, BLESS THE LORD, JESUS I SURRENDER, and many many more!! wow! i think this CD which came out in 2005 is really worth my $$!! including getting their signatures :D haha!! their latest album which is UNVEIL is gonna come out on the 22nd may 2007, rmb to get it! =Dit was a fulfilling week! =DDDDD
ps. i just realised my face in ev' single pic seems to be cut and paste lah!
2:06 PM
lundi, mars 12, 2007
♥ rejoice =DD
i'm very happy right now! even though my eyes and whole body feels like going to dreamland right now, i still wanna blog! LOL. i am really happy! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD yay! even though it's gonna be short-lived, at least i'm able to breathe properly le. wahh xD
after morning service on sunday morning, we went for the IT SHOW at suntec~ goodness gracious, it was so crowded! couldn't squezze in the shuttle bus to suntec so we had to walk a long distance. after getting the brochures for some laptops which is kinda no use liao since sunday was the last day, we chiong to find seats at starbucks sia! legs very suan, ache real badly. we managed to find seats at coffeebean at miliania walk which is equally far. haiz. imagine the distance we had to walk back from there to mrt station. seriously, i tot i'll never make it lah. lol. but we did and even reached church for evening service on time! =D haha. after evening service, we went to airport for dinner until 10plus. wanted to go home at simei but we went back to tamp to lim kopi. haha. and chit chat till 11:55 lidat. decided to take bus 18 opp library but after waiting for 15 min, decided to take 38 and stop at simei. haha.. wah, very tiring, reached home ard 12:45am ): and slept an hour after that bah. haha. but it was a happy night =D
after morning service on sunday morning, we went for the IT SHOW at suntec~ goodness gracious, it was so crowded! couldn't squezze in the shuttle bus to suntec so we had to walk a long distance. after getting the brochures for some laptops which is kinda no use liao since sunday was the last day, we chiong to find seats at starbucks sia! legs very suan, ache real badly. we managed to find seats at coffeebean at miliania walk which is equally far. haiz. imagine the distance we had to walk back from there to mrt station. seriously, i tot i'll never make it lah. lol. but we did and even reached church for evening service on time! =D haha. after evening service, we went to airport for dinner until 10plus. wanted to go home at simei but we went back to tamp to lim kopi. haha. and chit chat till 11:55 lidat. decided to take bus 18 opp library but after waiting for 15 min, decided to take 38 and stop at simei. haha.. wah, very tiring, reached home ard 12:45am ): and slept an hour after that bah. haha. but it was a happy night =D
1:15 AM
jeudi, mars 08, 2007
♥ great & mighty is He (:
okay! God blessed me today with free dinner! LOL. (: yea~ cleone gave sylvia & me a treat to fish&co!! :DD haha! happy us XD
sometimes, surrendering to Him to let Him take control is better than us mishandling the situation.
the day b4 Os results released, i surrendered to Him. (thanks to e song, the stand) the day b4 Os posting released, i felt peace. i knew i won't be going for marine courses cos He knows best. sometimes, these are blessings in disguise.
friends. He brought them back. cos i know what You want me to do.
and i stand with arms high and heart abandoned
in awe of the one who gave it all
i stand my soul LORD to you surrendered
all i am is yours
sometimes, surrendering to Him to let Him take control is better than us mishandling the situation.
the day b4 Os results released, i surrendered to Him. (thanks to e song, the stand) the day b4 Os posting released, i felt peace. i knew i won't be going for marine courses cos He knows best. sometimes, these are blessings in disguise.
friends. He brought them back. cos i know what You want me to do.
and i stand with arms high and heart abandoned
in awe of the one who gave it all
i stand my soul LORD to you surrendered
all i am is yours
2:18 AM
mardi, mars 06, 2007
♥ JAE posting and bass guitar!!!
suping & i bought our bass guitars ytd xD! and we really struggled on our way back home~ bass guitar and ampifier weighs approx 10KG! my shoulders aching right now la.. neways, checked online for the JAE posting this morning. i didn't managed to get into any marine courses in NP/SP but it's okay lah! since God don't want me to go for these courses, i'm more den willing to let this down. ooh!! and i got into SP's mechanical engineering!! =D yay! yea.. i don't have any interest in design and business, and since my siblings and frens are all taking/took engineering, got alot of seniors! xD
6:49 PM
dimanche, mars 04, 2007
♥ why am i a christian
ahh!!! blogger is so laggy today!! ):
woo! cruise was FUN (: will update on it another day~
neways, today's edge was amazing. sis yenfan was the speaker. the very 1st qns shook me ):
"why are you a christian?"
like some, i'm the second generation christian. which means my parents are christians, they bring us to church and *poof* we became christians. of cos, this isn't the way.. we're supposed to say the sinners prayer and believe in it. i've said 'em in CW (carpenters workshop), said 'em during edge, said 'em during services too. it's probably cos i'm not sure. not sure whether i said it from my heart, not sure whether i believed whatever i said. you know what's the [probably] bad thingy about being a second generation christian? is that we will never understand what's the life outside, not being a christian. thus, some often backslide from christianity, in order to enjoy life. sometimes, these ppl would probably have a harder time returning back to Jesus. cos they already have the bg of what's a christian and it'll be naturally tough to return cos they're enjoying life. no restrictions.
i've been like this once when i was in P4 ): ya lah, primary school nia, what's the big deal right. but i really need to thank God. storytime =D (dunno whether got hear b4 not..)
i had great pals when i was in p4! yea, really loved them to bits then. we wrote letters, talked on the phone, stayover at one another's place after school, practically do anything tgt~ i wasn't a good example of a christian then. duh, i didn't cared about being one lah. we would go to arcades (that explains why i dun wna go to arcades) using the $$ we kope from parents. the most i koped was ard $150 bah. buy gifts for one another using the money (shop keepers cheat our $$ lor) and sometimes, i'll be initiating to actually shoplift can! what an example lah. once, we shoplift up to hundreds of dollars. omg! that's when i got the whole day to steal. i actually played truancy ): i actually wanted to try smoking when i was at my fren's place cos her bro smokes, but i think i wasn't allowed or i was scared to try. haha.. when frens asked y i didn turn up for sch, i just said "stomach ache". when t'chers asked for MC/letter, i just said "FORGOT TO BRING" which was so untrue cos i didn't managed to dupe my mama into giving me her signature ): and then after that, i still skipped school for 2 days! i still rmb the day i got caught... sch mini funfair, my P5 aft called me in to the general office and she called my mama ): ya, that's how both my parents and t'chers realised i was lying to them all the while. haiz. what a "fun"fair. and these pals kept encouraging me by cursing that t'cher lah. LOL. they were great lah. bcos of them, i went for P5 camp. and bcos of them, i hated P5 camp so much. yea, cos i was hurt emotionally. painful. not only in school, even in church. i really hated them for treating me like that. yea, what is it which affect this whole friendship thingy right? it's bcos of smth stupid. real stupid. not only last week, did i finally managed to let these go. this bondage. haiz. but if i were to look at the other angle, i'm really grateful to God. whatever He had done to me then, it came at the right time. =D if i'm still sticking to them during secondary schooldays, i can bet a million dollars that i will live in regrets! cos all of them ain't doing well either. one quit school when she was in sec 2, one repeated sec3 NA, another was in sec1 express, den sec2 NA, den sec3 NT, den repeated sec3. another in NA thru-out 4 yrs, and didn't do well for N. etc. i can never imagine myself. u know the happiness i felt when i managed to get into express for PSLE. cos they were still my classmates and all of them couldn make it to express (: i tot to myself that i don't hafta see them anymore!! many things in secondary school, esp during sec 1&2 days. i didn't change at all. i continued shoplifting ):
the time when i changed completely? when i meet rachel in sec3. she was my pillar of strength and encouragement. like i mentioned, i was supposed to retain when i was in sec3 cos i calculated that i didn managed to get the 3 subj pass criteria. we worked tgt at ETY some where during OCT`05, and patrick asked smth like "next yr O lvl hor" I wanted to tell him so much that i'll take in 2 yrs time while rachel takes it next yr. i was super pessimistic (oops). but rachel told him and assured me that we'll take Os tgt next yr! what a good encouragement! whereas i protrayed myself as a bad christian. instead of encouraging her, i would suan her, put her down. i showed my true colours. even i didn't know. come to think of it, i hate myself for being such a person. i would show my temper, say vulgarities, and then i'll still say i'm a christian. what's a christian in her eyes now? it seems no difference from being a non-christian. i know that whatever i do, be it sms-ing, calling, chatting online, etc, this friendship will never be the same anymore. cos of me.
so why am i a christian? to find love from God. to find acceptance from Him.
woo! cruise was FUN (: will update on it another day~
neways, today's edge was amazing. sis yenfan was the speaker. the very 1st qns shook me ):
"why are you a christian?"
like some, i'm the second generation christian. which means my parents are christians, they bring us to church and *poof* we became christians. of cos, this isn't the way.. we're supposed to say the sinners prayer and believe in it. i've said 'em in CW (carpenters workshop), said 'em during edge, said 'em during services too. it's probably cos i'm not sure. not sure whether i said it from my heart, not sure whether i believed whatever i said. you know what's the [probably] bad thingy about being a second generation christian? is that we will never understand what's the life outside, not being a christian. thus, some often backslide from christianity, in order to enjoy life. sometimes, these ppl would probably have a harder time returning back to Jesus. cos they already have the bg of what's a christian and it'll be naturally tough to return cos they're enjoying life. no restrictions.
i've been like this once when i was in P4 ): ya lah, primary school nia, what's the big deal right. but i really need to thank God. storytime =D (dunno whether got hear b4 not..)
i had great pals when i was in p4! yea, really loved them to bits then. we wrote letters, talked on the phone, stayover at one another's place after school, practically do anything tgt~ i wasn't a good example of a christian then. duh, i didn't cared about being one lah. we would go to arcades (that explains why i dun wna go to arcades) using the $$ we kope from parents. the most i koped was ard $150 bah. buy gifts for one another using the money (shop keepers cheat our $$ lor) and sometimes, i'll be initiating to actually shoplift can! what an example lah. once, we shoplift up to hundreds of dollars. omg! that's when i got the whole day to steal. i actually played truancy ): i actually wanted to try smoking when i was at my fren's place cos her bro smokes, but i think i wasn't allowed or i was scared to try. haha.. when frens asked y i didn turn up for sch, i just said "stomach ache". when t'chers asked for MC/letter, i just said "FORGOT TO BRING" which was so untrue cos i didn't managed to dupe my mama into giving me her signature ): and then after that, i still skipped school for 2 days! i still rmb the day i got caught... sch mini funfair, my P5 aft called me in to the general office and she called my mama ): ya, that's how both my parents and t'chers realised i was lying to them all the while. haiz. what a "fun"fair. and these pals kept encouraging me by cursing that t'cher lah. LOL. they were great lah. bcos of them, i went for P5 camp. and bcos of them, i hated P5 camp so much. yea, cos i was hurt emotionally. painful. not only in school, even in church. i really hated them for treating me like that. yea, what is it which affect this whole friendship thingy right? it's bcos of smth stupid. real stupid. not only last week, did i finally managed to let these go. this bondage. haiz. but if i were to look at the other angle, i'm really grateful to God. whatever He had done to me then, it came at the right time. =D if i'm still sticking to them during secondary schooldays, i can bet a million dollars that i will live in regrets! cos all of them ain't doing well either. one quit school when she was in sec 2, one repeated sec3 NA, another was in sec1 express, den sec2 NA, den sec3 NT, den repeated sec3. another in NA thru-out 4 yrs, and didn't do well for N. etc. i can never imagine myself. u know the happiness i felt when i managed to get into express for PSLE. cos they were still my classmates and all of them couldn make it to express (: i tot to myself that i don't hafta see them anymore!! many things in secondary school, esp during sec 1&2 days. i didn't change at all. i continued shoplifting ):
the time when i changed completely? when i meet rachel in sec3. she was my pillar of strength and encouragement. like i mentioned, i was supposed to retain when i was in sec3 cos i calculated that i didn managed to get the 3 subj pass criteria. we worked tgt at ETY some where during OCT`05, and patrick asked smth like "next yr O lvl hor" I wanted to tell him so much that i'll take in 2 yrs time while rachel takes it next yr. i was super pessimistic (oops). but rachel told him and assured me that we'll take Os tgt next yr! what a good encouragement! whereas i protrayed myself as a bad christian. instead of encouraging her, i would suan her, put her down. i showed my true colours. even i didn't know. come to think of it, i hate myself for being such a person. i would show my temper, say vulgarities, and then i'll still say i'm a christian. what's a christian in her eyes now? it seems no difference from being a non-christian. i know that whatever i do, be it sms-ing, calling, chatting online, etc, this friendship will never be the same anymore. cos of me.
so why am i a christian? to find love from God. to find acceptance from Him.
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vendredi, mars 02, 2007
♥ back from cruise!
back from cruise! (:
3:53 PM
